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It's been two years since I fell in love with you
but this isn't about love.
i. I thought about telling you that sometimes,
I'm in a car and a country song comes on
and it takes me back -
with a bittersweet sadness -
because I remember.
I remember being in a car with you,
country songs on the radio,
which I normally wouldn't listen to, but
in these moments I didn't mind because I knew
that those songs would bring me back to those moments
and those moments were good.
Smiles and laughter and
where-the-hell-are-we-going.
Stress, too.
But most of it was good,
and it's gone forever and time is fleeting, the universe
is B I G,
we all make mistakes and it gets sad sometimes.
ii. I thought about telling you
I remember your smiles, your laughter,
I remember your smiles, your laughter,
your humor.
iii. I thought about telling you
that forgiving you is an uphill battle on a slippery slope
which I'll think I've finished climbing and then I will
s
l right back down,
i losing my footing,
p scraping myself raw.
iv. I thought about telling you I forgive you.
v. I thought about telling you that I wish
you find an easier way to breathe, and I wish
you find an easier way to breathe, and I wish
you find it before your breath starts rattling and rolling in your chest,
because time runs out for all of us,
no matter what angels or demons we are accompanied by,
and I wish
and I wish
you'd carry three demons less,
but only when I'm feeling generous,
on the days I beat the slippery slope.
vi. I thought about telling you how I loved you.
vii. I thought about telling you
how no heartbreak has hurt as bad and as long as
it did when you made your excuses,
and disappeared through the wires,
and how my wounds reopened when you found your tongue again.
viii. I thought about telling you
that you made me realise some things about myself,
that you made me realise some things about myself,
about patterns,
about how it was me that was tearing myself up,
was tearing my ribcage open,
and how I couldn't keep going like that.
ix. I thought about telling you
that you were a great teacher,
but a miserable friend and a coward
in the way you left.
x. I thought about telling you how I wish
I could have kissed you more, I wish
I could have showed you more of my heart and grace,
but these moments have long passed,
and I'm no longer certain the sentiment still rings true.
xi. I thought about telling you I loved you.
xii. I thought about telling you I stopped.
xiii.
I will tell you nothing,
so sleep tight,
and try to forget.
It's been two years since I fell in love with you,
but this isn't about love, it is
about what's left once love leaves.
Literature
in retrograde
here again i name myself an elegy for soft.
the ghosts unstitching their mouths–
impossible inevitable inconsequence.
the remainder. the echo. the wake.
pared to the bone, marrow unraveled;
a web of stars racked to the machine. soft;
you dead dreamweaver. threaded-needle-tongue.
here again this slingshot orbit cups an untouched moon.
claim yourself new. become untouchable. you remember:
this reassembly, this reinvention of choice.
become a fist pressed to the apex.
cut the compass out of your mouth.
soft; unspeak yourself again. you remember:
this funeral sacrament of a stopgap creed,
vacant planet unspun to wire–
clear th
Literature
''it's breaking,'' i whispered, i cried
dusty sunlight filtered
through glacial slats,
mineral impurities drip, drip, dropping
on your marbled skin
frozen floorboards creak
and crack
the ice
is rotting;
your casket weeps
chilled fingers grasping weakly
as the current claims you
swept
beneath
the lakeside, laketop carpet
you, too,
decay
prismatic refractions on
fractured bones,
ice fractals,
underwater icicles
is your coffin glass
or arctic gold?
Literature
Metta
Sometimes
when I fear that no one knows me,
I remind myself:
You are stars and indigo
jewel blue
and wide-ruled lines.
And this isn't loneliness.
It’s a delight to be a mystery.
No one can know your soul,
how it seeps into the cracks and crevasses of the world,
what little thrills it will delight in.
It's yours alone.
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August '18.
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